who loves whom?

do you ever get confused about that when you love someone but you don't know who he is, and that actually you don't know who loves him? i mean it's like that you wanna be someone that you don't really know in you . .? like, who are u...? who am i when i love you...? or who am i when i love him..? yeah, u have a same problem with me... that i like to be someone else... whats my damage? i don't like my self? an confident? no.. so much people likes me.... but why am i running? it's like I'm trying to get hard for them.. so, work hard to get me... like when i love this Izzy, i feel I'm that average girl.. I've grown up.. and I'm here... and like when i'm loving edward cullen, who am i? i'm not me.. , i'm bella.. and that feels sad..

love is big choices to pick.. love is that you belive in.. so that's me loving you now.. but is it you.. ,or him? ..